Living on the Edge

God has things to remind us of right in the middle of big fun and big fear...about His goodness.
The other day, we drove up the mostly rail-less Pike's Peak Highway....and obviously, I do mean HIGHway.

​I remembered it being a scary drive when I was little, looking out my right side passenger window, imagining one of our tires getting caught on the edge and our car being sucked down to the ground. I thought that maybe I would be over that fear, but I was so very wrong. I was laid out across the console, unable to look out the window at times. My family did not hate giving me hard time.

What in your life causes you to freak out like this? 

It was mental of course, but my fear was so physical! I could feel it in my bones. It really does paralyze me!

As I watched my kids stand in snow on the edge of a cliff (which, by the way, was way steeper than it looks in the picture), I ACTUALLY teared up as I imagined the worst, one of their feet slipping as they threw the snow up in the air and down they would go. It was terrible!
I wasn't scared the whole time, just in these few moments on the edge.

"Stockel Haus"

We lived though! The beauty of the mountains and valleys and sunset surrounded us making it impossible not to worship God with everything in me...even with the fear...knowing that He is so much greater than any fear. We listened to some Shane & Shane who sing so much Scripture that singing those "lyrics" as I looked out at God's creativity and majesty that my heart about wanted to burst.

​I even got to see goats on the side of the mountain, a picture of one of my favorite verses...
God, the Lord is my strength;
    he makes my feet life the deer's;
    he makes me tread on my high places.
Habakkuk 3:19
That confidence that He gives them to jump around so freely on the sides of cliffs...on the high places! This is the confidence I can have in trusting God. He couldn't give me a more perfect reminder right in the middle of my fear. He does that though, doesn't He? He shows up to show us that we need not fear, but trust in HIM.

Lexi was scared and dad came to the rescue! --- This was at the beginning and had I remembered it at the top, I would've remembered how God cares for me the way that Josh was caring for Lexi!

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At the top!

Our brave kids.

Right before we left, we met Bruce. He started teaching us all kinds of things! He even schooled us on prime numbers. The kids were clearly fascinated.

THIS is what blew my mind and couldn't keep me from worshiping the One who made it all.